A Message from Unconditional Love

Pt. 2 of this week's message, or whenever this is finding you. 

Spirit inspired me to share channeled writing from two years ago. It's so... key. I'll leave it at that :-) 

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SPEAKER_01 0:00

Hey guys, this is gonna be part two of the messages for this collective for on and about this collective. Alright. Today I'm gonna be reading to you guys from my journal an entry of a channeled writing experience that I had two years ago that it didn't set me off on my journey, but it did things definitely picked up and changed once I got clear on this one thing. Let me back up for a second. So today we're working with the first prompt, the first question that I'd asked. What's the most important thing for me to know about this collective in order for me to better read for them?

SPEAKER_00 1:21

Three of Swords.

SPEAKER_01 1:28

And usually, or like generally speaking, I guess, what this card means to me out of context is that or like it usually comes up to signify that your heart is interfering. Sorry, your mind is interfering with matters of the heart. Your mind is doing what it can to silence the heart or skew your perception of what your heart and your intuition are trying to guide you to do. And oftentimes it uses past pain. It triggers past pain in order to communicate, or like in order to make its case for why you should be hesitant, for why you should pause, why you should look for a different way forward than again what your heart is trying to tell you to do. And do the thing your heart is telling you to do anyway. Not necessarily the message for today, but like why not? Let that be a message for Shay. Um, but anyway, when I pulled this card and in response to that prompt in particular, I was like, oh, okay. It's important for me to understand right now that this collective is doing and has been doing the deep, deep, deep, deep work of untangling the heart and the mind.

SPEAKER_00 3:37

Like deep in that process.

SPEAKER_01 3:39

Um what if instead of dissecting and learning to discern between the mind and the heart, we used the words fear and love instead?

SPEAKER_00 3:55

Where fear is trying to skew your perception of love.

SPEAKER_01 4:05

Where fear is trying to keep you disconnected from the truth in the power of the energy of love. And when that clicked, like with that minor like matter of semantics, when the word choice went from head heart to fear and love, that's when it clicked for me, like, oh, okay, I need to share this breakthrough from two years ago. So the cool thing about this is, and I'm saying this from experience, I'm saying this from this isn't the first time that I have shared this message, or like that it's come up in a tarot reading for me to share this message with someone. Um, this is definitely like the most openly I'm doing it. Um but the cool thing about it is that like the first time I was doing this, I was like, so you just want me to like read straight from the journal? And it's like, yes. Because for me, this started out as me just like doing automatic writing, writing in my journal, but it turned into channeled writing. And so when I read it to you, how I wrote it, it is a transmission. Like the words that I will read to you, the way they came to me, the way they occurred to me, and it's not poetry. Like it's not exceptional writing. That's not what I'm trying to say at all. It's very much sounds like someone who just was writing in their journal. Um, but because of the energy I was in while I was writing it, these words, the way they're written, carry the energy of this breakthrough, of this message. And by reading it to you, it's a transmission.

SPEAKER_00 6:03

And you will receive it. What is what are what are gene keys?

SPEAKER_01 6:15

It will awaken gene keys. I don't know, like it will it will just the parts of you that already know this to be true, it will wake them up. It will yeah.

SPEAKER_00 6:25

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 6:28

Um that said, in order to do this, in order to communicate this with you guys, I have to set the stage a little bit. I have to tell you where I was coming from that got me to my journal in the middle of the day in the first place to talk about this. And that part I'm not gonna read verbatim because it's a not part of the breakthrough, and B, it just um, but basically, like I woke up that morning feeling not great because I made a decision to do something the day before that like I knew better than to do, essentially. And the next day I was feeling really guilty about it, but particularly guilty because I was like, oh my gosh, did I just undo all of the inner work that I've done by in a way like being selfish and knowingly doing something that I like knew better than to do? Whatever. We all make mistakes, right? But in this moment, I was like, it wasn't the kind of mistake where it's like, oh, in hindsight, I shouldn't have done that. It's like I knew better than to do it, and I did it anyway. You know what I mean? And getting to my journal that morning, like I had already been to my journal and written about things. And I just decided not to write about this thing because I didn't, I quote unquote, like didn't want to make a big deal about it. And so I'm writing about how I didn't even want to bring it here, how in my mind, my mind was trying to convince me that like it's better to just kind of like gloss over it, learn from it, move on, but let's not like dwell about it to the point where we're writing about it in a journal. Like, you know, acknowledge that you made a mistake, say you're sorry, and keep it moving. It's really not that bad. It's not that big of a deal. It's like my mind was urging me to consider like, well, what do other people do? And compare your choices to like, I don't know, things that other people do that are much, much, much, much worse. And like, if you're feeling guilty, just make yourself feel better in this way. Um, but ultimately, I brought it to my journal. I just made a note about how like other people are not, will never be my barometer for anything. Not success, not self-worth, and definitely not like in this instance, for right versus wrong. So, like putting it all on paper and confessing the fact that like I chose to do something that I knew better than to do is kind of the first step of like owning my shit and saying like a real, genuine sorry. And that was true. I was sorry. Like, no excuses, full ownership, living with whatever the outcome of the situation is, and not wishing for the outcome to be different, just asking for forgiveness, giving myself forgiveness, opening myself up to clarity around anything that I could do to rectify the situation, anything my intuition might be telling me to do. And then just knowing that, like, I literally won't make this choice again. Like, I know how awful I feel. I will not do this again. And that when I was writing about that, that kind of is where things started to crack open a little bit. Um, I had this really interesting experience of like parts of me did not want me to bring it to my journal and write about it because they were perceiving that me writing about it was like giving into the guilt, making the situation more permanent by like recording it on paper. And those parts of me were questioning how I would actually be able to forgive myself and move on if I gave this situation life on the paper. But writing about it is actually what was setting me free. Like I was literally like writhing in guilt and shame all morning before I went to my journal, trying to move on, trying to convince myself that I was overthinking the situation, massively overthinking the situation, and that by doing so, I was giving it too much power, trying to convince myself, like, let it go, move on. It's really not that big of a deal. And honestly, it wasn't. Like in the grand scheme of things, it really wasn't. Um, but I was feeling such a discomfort and I couldn't understand why. Definitely isn't like the worst thing I've ever done in my life. Um, but I just really deeply felt that like I'm really struggling to move on. So I'm even though I have a lot of resistance to it, I am just gonna go write about it in my journal. And when I did that, when I owned it, it's like as soon as I wrote about the situation, I immediately started to feel relieved. And the parts of me that thought that like writing about it would give it more life by putting it on paper, it's like, okay, but by doing that, I realized now it only lives on the paper. I'm no longer feeling the guilt and the shame. And part of that too is because I genuinely was like sorry. Like I genuinely was clear on like, I will not do that again. When I started writing, when I had the idea that maybe I should write about this, I had no idea that that would be the effect, but it was. So anyway, I get to this point where I'm like feeling really grateful that like all of these heavier emotions are alleviating themselves. And then I wrote, this is slightly unrelated, but it feels connected. Dot dot dot. Okay, now I am going to start reading straight what I wrote in my journal. And this will ultimately lead to and be the transmission. So if you made it this far, if you could endure that far, congrats. This message is for you. Don't think about it too much, but just let yourself receive it.

SPEAKER_00 13:51

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 13:56

The other night I had a stray thought there's nowhere I won't go with myself. No question I won't ask, no answer I'm too afraid to admit to myself. No part of me that, if brought to my attention, I'm too scared to look at. And as I thought about that, it felt true. In some ways, this situation feels like a test of that theory. And no, I'm not saying, like, oh, I'm so glad I made that decision and that thing happened. Clearly, that happened as a test. Like, no, if I could take it back, I would. And yet at the same time, it does happen to also be evidence of strengths, like the tarot card strengths, of being able to face my demons, own my faults, head on, mask off, no bullshit. It is kind of refreshing to know that even with something like this, maybe even especially with something like this, I kept it real with myself. Not that I'm surprised, it's just dot dot dot. Journal, something is happening. Like right now. Something that parts of me were resistant to putting in writing is now making me feel really good while I write about it. I don't have to hide from myself. I'm having a breakthrough around unconditional self-love. Whoa. That's what I'm feeling as I'm writing this right now. Unconditional self-love. Not making excuses for myself and saying I didn't actually fuck up when I did, but loving myself the same through my mistake, loving my whole self deeply, even when I'm disappointed with a decision I made. And that literally feels really good. There's this unfolding realization happening to me in real time where I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can love myself through anything. I didn't even know I needed to hear that. But this is one of the most powerful things I may have ever written. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that I can love myself through anything. Do you know why this is so powerful, Journal? Because in this moment, I am set free from fear. All fear. And that that's enough.

SPEAKER_00 17:18

Enough.

SPEAKER_01 17:20

That part is so key. Truly, and I do. I love myself so much. That's not news. I've been conscious of that for a while. But now I know without realizing that I didn't already know this or feel this before, that I love myself no matter what. For better or for worse, for richer or for poorer, in sickness and in health, when I make decisions for my highest and best interest, and when I make decisions that are of my lowest and worst. And this is how the universe works. This is universal love. This is big journal. I am tapped into universal love right now. That's the frequency I'm on. And it feels so good. I'm actually feeling it right now too. I hope you are too. I could stay in this feeling. It's like a hot tub, I swear. Once upon a time, not that long ago, I thought about how if I tried something, like really went out on a limb and tried something, and it failed massively, publicly, in the most embarrassing way possible. As long as the love of my life loved me, then I then I'd already won, and nothing else would matter, failure wouldn't even phase me. Today I'm realizing, maybe, definitely, for the first time ever, that I am capable of giving that level of love to myself, and I'm receiving it. I just unlocked a whole new level of power of being unfuckwithable. Wow. This is one of the most important realizations, breakthroughs I've ever had. This energy is what makes you, me, whoever, unstoppable. This energy is what gives you a fearless heart. I always have me to come home to. And there is nothing else outside of me that I need. The power of self-love means something so much deeper than I have ever understood. And being in this energy, nothing bad can come from this energy. This is like the most amazing soil to plant seeds in. Okay, I'm done. I just, wow. Thank you, spirit. Did that just happen? When you love yourself in this way, not this much, by the way, it's not an amount thing. You don't have to hide from yourself. When I had that thought the other night, I didn't know that I was holding the key to unlocking such a powerful truth, belief, wisdom. This is freedom. Because now I know what it means. I am awakening to the experience of there is nothing outside of me that I am seeking. And back to the word enough. Because giving myself that level of love is the one thing. Receiving it is another thing entirely. Let me test out this quote. If you feel like self-love is not enough, then it isn't true love. Because love is always love. Like I said, it's not an amount thing, it's not a conditional thing. In the past, I think I've confused moments of confidence and worthiness as self love. But in a way, those things have always been dependent on. Something in the past that I could point to that proved that I was capable of something or worthy of belonging somewhere. And something in the past is outside of me, is something outside of me, outside of my being. It's not an amount thing and it's not conditional. You're either tapped into your self-love or you're not. And how do you know if you truly are? If you are, then you won't be left wanting or needing more love or more anything, really. There is nothing more than love. And this will only make sense to you if you've felt true self-love, and only not make sense to you if you haven't. I didn't explicitly realize that I was, I don't want to say turned off to self-love, but like I didn't fully respect it. I underestimated it. LOL in my mind, I think I've subconsciously been perceiving it as boring, lackluster. And the more that I think about it, a part of me was probably subconsciously trying to keep me small and safe because I didn't fully understand its power. What I'm trying to get at is I was like, okay, yes, self-love check. But I want other love too. And I'm kind of realizing there is no other love. There is just love. When you have true love for yourself, you are full of love. When you fully love yourself, there is no void of other love. I always thought that love had types: a checklist of familial love, platonic love, self-love, romantic love, etc. And what's clear to me now is that these may be different types of relationships, but there is only one love. It's not separate. And so if you have self-love, true self-love, you won't feel the need to then go out and fill up on other types of love. You're already tapped in. If you feel yourself wanting more love or other love, you may want to check in with yourself first and see: do I truly love myself? Because the answer is probably that you're either not currently tapped into it or you're not open to receiving it from yourself. I can feel the truth in this so deeply. I love what is happening here. Okay, any final messages? Love is love, period. And there is an infinite abundance of it within ourselves. An endless well of love that we always have access to. Love as our natural state. When you're tapped in, you can see it everywhere, and it can flow to you from anywhere. Anything, anyone, but you won't feel that you need it to. Dare I say, even self-love is a not a myth per se, but like it's just love. And we can share it with ourselves as much as we share it with others. It's not a separate brand of love, but this is how I used to view it. Like I used to think of self-love as a stop on a journey toward other types of love. Nice, sure. Necessary, yes, absolutely, but only as a means to an end, not a final destination. And for this reason, self-love, the idea never felt like enough. Because my idea of what it was was flawed. It wasn't true love. So, yeah, of course, that was never going to be enough. It was always going to leave me wanting more. But true love is always filling. It's always more than enough, no matter the source. It is infinite, it is limitless, and we can always give this magic to ourselves.

SPEAKER_00 26:52

That's how powerful we are genuinely not to be dramatic.

SPEAKER_01 27:10

I always feel so like expansive after I yeah. Um I know I can feel energy, and I think that's why like it is literally just pure energy and like consciousness of love when I read that. I hope you guys can feel that too. Um if not immediately, again, like gene keys, it's like it's awake in you now, so you might um yeah, just be just have your eyes peeled for how this information, this technology might influence you over the next however long. Um the most important thing that I can know about this collective is that you guys are on your way doing the deep work of love and fear are not two sides of the same coin. Love is infinitely more powerful than fear. And I think you guys already know that. I think you guys are already well on your way on your journey to discovering the truth in that. And I think it's less about the important thing I can know about you guys, but honestly, just like the most important thing I can share with you guys was probably that at this moment in time.

SPEAKER_00 29:02

So you always have yourself to go home to, and that's enough.

SPEAKER_01 29:16

If that doesn't feel true for you yet, no problem, it will. And in the meantime, you can just say a prayer, ask your guides to show you how true that wisdom is. Oh, sorry, if you yeah, I'm gonna be wearing that energy for the rest of the day, so that's really nice. Okay. I genuinely love you guys so much, and um glad that I could share these messages with you this week. Peace and true love.