The Many Messages of May

Evergreen messages to last the month <3 

(sorry, i clear my throat a lot in this epi it's pretty obnoxious)

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Primary energetic weather: Justice x Knight of Wands ​

May's call to action: The Empress

A message from joy: Page of Pentacles

A Message from your seeds: 10 of Wands (Rx) x 2 of Cups

A message from your body: The Hierophant

A message from your intuition: Two of Wands x Knight of Swords 

Unexpected magic: The Hanged Man (Rx)

Final messages: Page of Wands x Three of Pentacles

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In-epi shoutouts: 

"one of my mentors" - George Poulos

"my tarot teacher" - Lyndsey Marie Atkinson | SACRED SELF COACH

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Transcript

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Yo, okay, so I am still on my experimentation grind. Happy Monday, guys. I went to go get my tarot deck this morning so I could pull card of the week and I still had my like monthly, my May monthly spread um set out on my dresser. And I was looking at it and I was like, dang, this message was so fire. I wish that this is what I could share with everybody. Um I do a monthly reading for myself at the start of every month. And I do it with the intention of like me, myself, and I. So I was sitting there thinking, like, I can't, like, as much as I want this to be like today's episode and sharing like message of the month ahead instead of message of the week. I was sitting there like, oh, but I didn't pull it with the intention of like sharing it with the collective, so that would be out of integrity. I can't do that. But then I was like, well, like, did you ask? Like you could always ask, so I did. Um, yeah, I just sat and I was like, were I to share this message for May with the collective, would that be in integrity with the message that I received? Is it open and available to be shared with the masses? And the answer I got is yes. Like the people that find the message and listen to it and resonate with it, like absolutely it's for them. Even though I pulled it with the intention of, you know, insight into my own, the own energetic weather of the month ahead. And yeah, so anyway, it's not that I got permission, I just got clarity that, like, yes, yes, this is applicable beyond just you. Because newsflash, and I already knew this, I am a part of my own collective. A lot of times when I am getting these messages of the week, I am not just like an innocent watcher, I am a full-blown participant. So why should this be any different? Okay, but anyway, yeah, that's the experiment. Um, we're gonna talk about the various prompts and cards that I pulled for this lovely month of May. I am so sorry. Hopefully I can cut out all this coughing. There's really something in my throat right now. Okay, so for the first prompt, I just I asked just that, like what is the primary energetic weather for the month ahead? And I got justice in the Knight of Wands. Okay, this is really cool, and as a former athlete, the message made me a little emotional as well. Um, the picture, the scenario that these cards were creating together was like you have this coach who is a really good coach and you really trust them, but they're like a bit of a hard ass. And it would be one thing if like they were that tough on everybody, but from where you're sitting and from the way you've been coached, you're just like they're making it extra hard on me. Like they are holding me to a standard of excellence and perfection, seemingly perfection, um, that other people just don't seem to be held to. And like what the fuck is up with that? Like, I am out here trying my hardest, doing my best. I'm not even complaining about any of this, but like when I sit down and think about it, like this seems really unfair. This coach is definitely putting me through the ringer, and like this this feels incredibly like personal and intentional. So what gives? Okay, that's not the energy of the month ahead. The energy of May is like having come to this realization that like, oh this coach was really hard on me in certain ways that they weren't hard on other people because they were trying to bring out a level of greatness that they could perceive in me, that I couldn't yet perceive in myself. And even though I was taking things really personally, it's like I it's like we're coming into the understanding, into the clarity that like they were doing it out of love this whole time. I don't mean this in like a toxic way, but it's like no, they were pushing you not because they hated you and not because they wanted you to fail, but because this coach wanted you to see your potential as clearly as they saw it, and we weren't seeing it. And for a long time it felt like bullshit, but now we understand like oh I can handle this all and I can handle it easily, and I recognize that it's not that like I had to go through these lessons, it's just that like it wasn't until I went through these lessons that I finally understood what this coach was trying to show me. And like had I been able to see that all along, then the ways in which I was perceiving like this coach being hard on me, I wouldn't have even perceived it that way. And now in hindsight, I don't perceive it that way. So anyway, it's just this moment of recognition where like the student sees that the teacher had their best interest at heart all along. And okay, what does this have to do with the energetic weather? So when you look at the orientation of the cards, the knight of wands is coming up on okay, the person in the justice card who's sitting in the throne. Um, the knight of wands is coming up on that person's left side. And so in the right hand of the justice person, the person on the justice card, they're holding a sword in their right hand. And in their left hand, they are holding a set of scales. And so what this feels like is well let's talk about Knight of Wands for a second. Knight of Wands is about your capacity to uh it's like movement, so your capacity to like move throughout your life from person to person, situation to situation, etc. etc. Committed to and loyal to your authenticity. Like a a good metaphor for this, like a good metaphor for the importance of this is like um buddy the elf. You know, like he's totally taken out of his environment from North Pole to New York City. And even with all that, like never once does he like switch up on who he knows himself to be. Even when it really is like not the vibe that everybody else is willing to accept from him initially. But anyway, it's just like yeah, Knight of Wands is very much like that level of commitment to your to who you are or to your eccentricity. Wait, what the what's it what is that word? Ecentric, eccentricity. Yeah. Um yeah, just like willingness to march to the beat of your own drum, that kind of thing. And so when this energy is in the reverse, that's when it might be showing up um and being on the receiving end of justice with the sword in the hand. And where it feels like you know, life's a little bit sticky. Life's a little bit of a hard ass on us. Why does everything feel so spiky and pointy? And then we realized, like, oh life was just trying to get me to understand that like loyalty to authenticity and choosing ourselves, no matter what the situation may be, choosing to show up as ourselves is the most important thing that we could possibly do, and we have the capacity to do it. And now that we are really embracing that, that reversed Knight of Wands energy is balancing itself out. We're owning that, and because of that, like what used to feel prickly is balancing itself out. So this card is showing up on the same side as the scales because anything that felt like being in the process of learning the lesson, understanding the lesson, is now moving into the energy of lesson learned. And so, yeah, just the energy is coming back into balance. But also like, I want to make it, it's like things are coming into balance, but they're not going back to what you used to perceive as normal, right? Because you've changed. You have now like really embraced what is essentially a karmic lesson about authenticity and the role that it plays, yes, in your life as a whole, but also like your day-to-day life, who you show up as, what you choose to participate in, what you give your time and attention to, all of that. So um, it's really cool is an understatement. Um it's actually like it's actually pretty life changing. It's actually pretty life changing. Um yeah. I feel like I'm trying to find the words, but also it's just there really aren't any words. It's just something to experience, and if you know, you know. So I guess that's how you'll know. Hold on, Harry. Gotta see if it's safe at all. Okay. It's safe. Um yeah. Okay, so that was number one. Secondly, I was asking, um, come on here. Secondly, I was asking, like, well, what is May's call to action going to be? And for that, we got the Empress. And for that, we got the Empress. Okay, and so yes, that is all about divine feminine energy. If you need a refresher on that, the message for spring goes into that pretty deeply. Um, and but the specific message it was giving to like answer that question, May's call to action. It's like the Empress wants you to play in the world that you've created for yourself. Okay, so like wherever you are right now, whatever you're engaging in, whatever you're in the process of creating, um, whatever you're like, I don't know, just whatever the situation is. You can keep creating it as long as you are inspired to like I don't know, make changes, add a touch here, do a thing there. Like as long as that's inspired, that's totally fine. But um there's this energy of like taking a load off and like enjoying whatever it is that you've created. Okay, the specific um metaphor that I was getting around this is like some event planner who has been working really hard to like get this event up and running, and now it's like the night of the party, and she's in her blame and she has the most amazing outfit on, but she's just like walking around on edge. Like, are other people enjoying the party? Is there enough food? Are the drinks like how are the drinks? Are people navigating the venue okay? And she's just like, and here's the thing, like everything is going exceptionally well, but it's also like anything that could be done about it, it's like it's already it's already happening, like the event is unfolding, it's showtime, people are arriving, you've delegated all the tasks, like you know, the valet knows what they're doing, the bartenders know what they're doing, the servers know what they're doing. You've planned for this. And the Empress wants you to like stop working and start enjoying this event that you've thrown. Like, no one wants to be the bride at her own wedding, just wondering if everyone else is having a good time. Like, hello. It's your it's your wedding. Are you having a good time? So anyway. The Empress is like Yeah, just I'm also kind of getting like God resting on the seventh day. Not in any religious sort of way, but just the idea of like wherever you are right now is what you've created. Go enjoy it. Go play in it. Yeah. Okay. So those first two prompts are consistent from month to month, and then the last two prompts that I'll finish with are consistent month to month. But the ones in the middle, it could be like two, three, or four, however many I'm feeling. Those prompts, um, like uh part of the the reading is for me to like feel out what has a message that it wants to share with us in the first place. So like in April when I did this, I could feel that okay, abundance has a message it wants to share. Um, what were the other two? Unconditional love and belonging. And this month I was tuning in, and the first one came through really strongly that Joy had a message for us this month. And when I got around to pulling that card, what came through was the page of pentacles. And it's such a straightforward message, and sometimes I feel like when the messages are so easy, simple, straight to the point, they're easy to kind of I don't want to say disregard, but like it's easy to maybe underestimate the depth because the message is so simple, but I'm telling you, this is going to be important. It's going to be useful if you can heed Joy's guidance. And with the Page of Pentacles, um, it was communicating a message about letting joy be the focal point this month. The metaphor I got actually is let joy be the meditation object. Okay, so I um have been learning meditation from one of my mentors this year, and he's been teaching a lot of us two different types of meditation, one of which is breath meditation. So literally meditating on the breath for like 15 or 20 minutes. The whole goal is to just have your soul focus and attention on your breath, and even more specifically, like on a very specific pinpoint. Sensation of your breath. Like focusing on the same spot and feeling what it feels like on the inhale and on the exhale. So it's kind of effortful. Um maybe more so than I originally thought meditation was before I started practicing it. But anyway, in that breath meditation, the breath is the meditation object. It's the only thing that we are aiming to focus on. Now the mind wanders, and so the whole point with the breath being the meditation object is when you catch the fact that your mind is maybe focused on something else or thinking about something else, no problem. We just joyfully return to focusing our attention on our breath. Okay, that is meant to be joy this month for us. Wherever you go, whatever the situation is, whether you're in a time of like what feels like fruitfulness and ease and abundance, or whether you're in a time that feels challenging or um yeah, just whatever version of difficult. And recognizing that that can potentially sound a little sadistic, but it's just like regardless of what is going on around you, how can you like keep returning to joy over and over and over again this month? And I think actually, yeah, even more importantly is like when you're in energy of like boredom, especially, because I think what this will teach you, what you'll find if you haven't already experienced this for yourself already, is like joy and really any feeling is not a quality of any certain person or location or experience or whatever. It starts with you. And so the mission this month, I guess, is just to A, like focus on joy, to open yourself up to experience the experience of joy in as many moments as possible. And when you find that you've like forgotten the meditation object, no problem. Again, just remember once you remember, just joyfully return to like, oh, like let me bring joy into the situation. But yeah, like kind of let it be like a challenge of like how many moments, how many experiences can I infuse with joy throughout the month of May? And then there's something valuable, important going on there in that. Um yeah. Okay. Yeah, gonna leave that there. Okay, the next prompt. What was the next prompt? I wanted to get a message from shoot, hold on, I forget. Give me a sec. Oh right. Your seeds. Your seeds have a message from you. Can you guys hear the children's laughter? Um sounds like a summer camp or something going on. Okay, your seeds. Our seeds have a message for us. Ten of Wands reversed and the Two of Cups. Another really straightforward message. Your seeds want you to know that as soon as you disengage from any sort of narrative or like energetic obligation that says that you have to bring these to fruition all by yourself. As soon as we let go of that, um the aligned people, partnerships, resources, etc. are poised to meet us where we're at and can come in to help us. Okay, what your seeds are not saying is that you can't cultivate these things all by yourself. You totally can if you want, like 100%. Um, this is a message about like, but if you're open and available to it, you can allow it to be even easier and you can have help. Not because you can't do it by yourself, but in some ways it's like I mean I could, but why would I want to? Yeah, exactly. Why would you want to? And I don't think I've ever looked at these cards side by side before either. What was really interesting to me is like they're essentially in the exact same setting. Like the location of these cards, it's like the person with the ten carrying the ten wands, and then the people engaging with like their two cups, they could be standing like on the same sidewalk a hundred feet away from each other. They're just having two totally different experiences while they are more or less standing in the same place. And it's kind of like, yeah, that's like that could be you, like that is you. And it's not that one has to be better than the other. Your seeds are just letting you know, like, hey, you don't have to be the only person tending to this garden. And if you want some help, all you have to do is let go of your expectation that you are the only one who could do the watering and cultivate these intentions too freshen. You don't even have to go anywhere. You don't even have to do anything. It's like you're already standing in the in the vicinity of where like help, again, the people, the resources, etc. can and will find you. You just have to let go of the energetic expectation that you have to do this alone. Period, mic drop. Next question. Okay. This will be good for me to attempt to explain because this is actually this one was hard for me to understand. Like it was hard for me to understand what I was receiving. Alright. I felt like my body had a message, and the card I pulled was the Hierophant. And there were some things that were like immediately sticking out to me, but I was like, okay, what does this have to do with like a message from the body? So on the Hierophant, there is a lot of like spiritual and religious symbology. And um, so yeah, so I was picking that was immediately standing out to me, so it felt like this had to do something with like divinity. There were also um there's two keys on the bottom of the card. So I remember feeling like okay, the body and it, there's it's the key to something, something, something about divinity. Um and then also I was getting like wisdom, wisdom, and I was like, what? I was honestly like what the fuck is going on here? Like I'm not like I'm not picking up whatever this message is trying to put down. So I had to like strip it back for a second. I was like, well, what do we know about the Hierophant big picture? And my tarot teacher, Lindsay, um, she talked about how the Hierophant is the phase in the major arcana where like a karmic lesson first presents itself. And um, how do I say this? Like when we go on a journey to have something that we've never had before, or to experience something we've never experienced before, to embody something we've never embodied before. Um, you know, we're well on our way, we're on our journey, we're putting putting things into place, we're attending it, um we're getting our mind right around it, and then eventually we come up to this, which is phase five, because the hierophant is card five in the major arcana, and what it's representative of is a karmic lesson. Meaning this is the place where we first encounter, like, oh, this is why I've never had this thing before, this is why I've never experienced this thing before, it is because insert the introduction of whatever karmic lesson. And really, what that karmic lesson is communicating to us is like, yeah, if you want that thing, like absolutely you can have it, it's probably actually for you, and you're meant to like evolve in this way in order to get it, and so at that point we're becoming aware of what the karmic lesson is. It doesn't necessarily mean that we like accept the challenge. Like some of us may be like, oh, I'd have to change that thing about me, I'd have to evolve beyond this belief system or this way of being. Like, no, like I'm actually not willing to part with that thing. Like, never mind, I don't actually, like, I'm good. Like, I don't need this manifestation after all. I'm cool. But even if we do accept the challenge and we say, like, okay, I am opening myself up to go on that journey and transform in that way, it doesn't mean that we necessarily learn the lesson in that moment in time. Right. Okay, but what is the energetic weather of this month? Aww, yeah, I'm feeling it. What is the energetic weather of this month? Justice and the Knight of Wands. Oh my god, guys, this is so good. For some reason I'm like feeling this even more than like the first time I channeled it because I think I'm like actually understanding it much, much better. Yeah. Okay. Um, if five hierophant is where we learn, or sorry, is where we become aware of like, hey, there's a karmic lesson for us to learn, we may or may not learn it that quickly. And if we don't, sometimes it takes until us getting to justice, which is phase 11, before we can actually like learn that lesson. Right? Like sometimes it takes a hard ass coach for us to understand, like, oh, okay, that like this is the lesson, and this is how you embody it, and this is how okay, it's clicking now. And because the energetic weather of this month is a commemoration for us going on that journey, accepting the lesson, and then like it finally clicking, and life now getting to rebalance itself around the wisdom and embodiment of said lesson. The body is giving us a message via the hierophant that it is upgrading to this new level of wisdom. It's like you have learned the karmic lesson on an energetic level, and you have maintained your integrity around said lesson, like you know it inside and out now. You know it inside and out, and so your body is literally changing to accommodate that. Your nervous system is literally expanding and in some ways has expanded to accommodate that. And part of the wisdom too is like your body already knows how to do this. Your body has known how to do this. It's just been a matter of like I feel like I this is what came up maybe on the last one, like gene keys. I should look that up because I actually don't know what I'm talking about when I say that. But that's what came to me in the last audio, and I feel like I might be using like the wrong term, but it just it feels like um certain DNA like coming online through your commitment to like knowing, understanding, embodying, and choosing this upgrade. It's like now like your body is doing that, it is upgrading to match the energy that you have deeply committed to. And with the Knight of Wands and with the two keys, um, there's something on this card that was like Huey, please stop. Please stop. Thank you. Hey, hey. Okay, there's something, okay, at the top of the card, there are these pillars on this card, and at the top, there's like these designs in them. I was looking at them and they looked like female anatomy to me. Like they looked like um re female reproductive organs. Whatever. Really random, but that is what was being communicated to me, and it felt like um this had to do with like sacral energy. So like creativity, creation, fertility, sexuality, sensuality, etc. And the two keys have to do with a visibility in this energy, visibility, like being your authentic self in this energy, creating from a place of authenticity, and also recognizing that your like a creativity is authentic to you, and then B, as you're creating, you are infusing your authenticity into what it is you're creating. Hopefully that distinction's making sense because I don't know how else to phrase it. Um and so the first key is like being visible in that process. Comfort, safety, neutrality, maintaining homeostasis in visibility, and then also maintaining homeostasis in leadership. Visibility and leadership, those are the two keys. And like to bring it all home, it's also saying, like, where once upon a time you were the person on their knees looking up to the hierophant, like, please help me learn this lesson, right? Like, we were the the person being coached. Um we were the person being coached in the Justice Knight of Wands energy. It's like your your body is giving you this message, like, hey, you're going through this physiological upgrade, and actually now you're gonna you're you know this to the point where like you could teach it. Like you have something to share. You could help other people looking to achieve this same um. Or like you could help people achieve the same sense of like understanding and embodiment around this karmic lesson. Okay, that is that message. That is that message. Come on, Harry. Good boy. Alright, and then lastly, sorry, not actually lastly, but like this is the last thing that wanted to give us a message this month, our intuition. A message from the intuition. We have the two of wands and the knight of swords. And I really loved this message. Um the Knight of Wands, sorry, the Two of Wands is like this person kind of standing, considering. I just get like they have this globe in their hands, and I just feel like they're standing there looking out into the vista, just wondering like, what should I do next? What should I create next? And there's no pressure around it, it's just a genuine curiosity. Um, but the message I'm getting is like at some point, that person, us, we receive the answer. We receive the divine inspiration around that thing, like what to do next, what to create next, what to say next, where to go next. And with the Knight of Swords coming up immediately after that, the message our intuition has for us is like this month, it really wants us to practice like a three step approach. approach to taking inspired action. Step one being open yourself to receive the inspiration, right? Consider what next. Step two, receive said download. Step three, take action immediately. On said action. And then start the process over again. Basically our intuition is telling us like do away with all the other a hundred steps of bullshit in between receiving the download and then taking action on the download. It's a bullshit waste of energy time suck. For us in particular at this stage in the journey. Because when you're first um trying to get familiar with and understand your relationship to your intuition right like it can feel scary. It can feel like well can I trust this thing? Like oh okay I think that was my intuition like now do I do that? And then also we think about all the things like okay but if I did that you know it brings up a lot of stuff for us right like okay if I took that action if I was loyal to my authenticity in that way like what are the implications of that if this thing were to happen how would I react to that if this thing didn't happen how would that make me feel how would I deal with that and like there's absolutely a time and a place for this level of work because a lot of times there's a lot of stuff for us to learn um and do in that kind of like journal prompty theoretical type energy. Our intuition is saying to us this month though like we're phenomenal at that we're fantastic at that we can dance our way to and through any situation hold on this week we get some pretty loud give me a second but yeah we can like we know how to do that dance right like we know how to say like we know how to put it all on paper we know how to alchemize every situation when stuff comes up for us we're really good at journaling through like well why does that actually not have to mean any like we're good at that we're phenomenal at that to the point where it is an overused skill if we're like dragging our feet in the part where we actually like take action and see what happens. And so this this message is coming through basically to say like we know you can do that. Now our intuition is challenging us to like receive download take immediate action because here's the thing we know that if we receive a download to do something we're gonna take action on it anyway like we we've developed that level of relationship with our intuition where it's like we know at the end of the day if our heart's telling us to do something we're gonna do it this is about practicing the turnaround time between receiving download fulfilling action because I will say whoa that just gave me a heart attack I will say there's like a an underlying message to this too where it's like I think maybe we've also even gotten into this pattern where it's like okay before we do something we've never done before before we follow our intuition into some unknown action we get in this pattern of thinking like oh okay what is this gonna bring up for me? Like what stuff is going to come to the surface when I do this thing that I've never done before and we're kind of in this pattern of assuming that like following our intuition is always going to bring something up for us and I'm kind of getting this message that like it's really not like at this point it's really not we may still be operating under the assumption that like every time we take a new action there's gonna be some new like I don't know trigger or lesson to learn or something to like wound to whatever. And I'm kind of getting like I think we're gonna be surprised at how when we receive the download take action to the download like A we're gonna be surprised at like how easy it is and how much stuff at this point doesn't come up it doesn't mean stuff will never come up but we need to get out of this mindset that like stuff is always going to come up to be dramatic but there's a bald eagle and I just love that. I love that so much and a hawk at the same time okay you know how I feel about my birds um yeah so that's the first thing the other thing is we don't need to anticipate what's gonna be brought up and how we would work through it. We can literally we are like we are well equipped to handle shit as it comes up we do not need to anticipate it not anymore and so this is about practicing that skill because then I forget what number I'm on secondly or thirdly we're also gonna be surprised at how much faster we get where we're going when we just receive the download take action open ourselves up receive the next download take action open ourselves back up again without the 500 million nonsense steps in between. That's what our intuition wants us to know love that message and on to the next okay the final two prompts which I ask consistently every month the first is unexpected magic and I'm telling you guys I had a moment like a full on moment with this card yeah okay whatever hanged man in the reverse part of me is wondering like do I make this its own episode but no it's really not that deep. I mean like it is that deep but it's like it it can be a part of this. Okay. So I'm stare I'm staring at this card I felt like we were having like a staring contest and I just started getting all this stuff and it's like before I could even like fully receive the message I just could already tell like oh wait this is going somewhere deep like I don't know where this is going yet but this is going somewhere deep part of me is like do I just attach the raw audio of me like shoot I might just clip in the audio of like me receiving the message around that okay I'll still talk about it here just in case I don't do that but if I do then roll the clip. Okay but if I don't so anyway hangbanner in reverse I felt like I was having a staring contest with this card and as I'm looking at it I was getting this scene from the live action Alice in Wonderland movie the ones with like Anne Hathaway and Helen Bottom Carter. Um it's like right when Alice falls down the rabbit hole she hits she like smacks into the bottom and she like sits up and her hair is standing straight up on her head and she's really confused and then it occurs to her like oh I'm sitting on the ceiling that's why my hair is standing straight up and then I'm assuming her internal dialogue was something like wait it's impossible to be sitting on the ceiling and it was like as soon as she realized what she was doing and that it was impossible she fell and then smacked into the ground again the other way and I was having this moment with the hanged man in reverse where it's like this shouldn't make sense like in order to be a hanged man you need gravity like a hanged man in reverse just in terms of what's physically possible doesn't actually make sense and then this whole message came through about the unexpected magic this month yeah essentially being your there's magic in your ability to believe in the impossible or set a better way there's magic in your ability to know and believe that everything is possible I know how tempting it is to drink that up as a cliche but the magic is in how literal you can make that statement the only reason Alice fell from the ceiling it wasn't because in the movie that was an impossible thing to happen that poodle wanted us dead okay um it's not because in Wonderland that was an impossible thing to happen it's because she it was her awareness that this is impossible and so she was right it was okay I know I'm talking about a fantastical movie here and that what I'm saying is arguably fantastical church bell but guys this shit is meant to be taken as literally as possible and that level of possible is up to you that level of possible is totally up to you if I were you I would let that get as big and quote unquote fantastical and quote unquote impossible as possible I basically went on this whole or like I I was receiving this whole thing about how like quote unquote self-awareness fucks everything up because you could be doing something something could be happening to you the world could be showing you just how like crazy and amazing life can be and it's like as soon as you become aware that like I can't believe this is happening this shouldn't be happening like I can't believe this like this can't actually be possible like this can't be real life this isn't real life as soon as that is your perspective as soon as you know that to be true as soon as you know that like no surely this can't be happening this isn't happening you're right you're right and your awareness what you call your awareness which is really self-imposed limitation will literally like life will sometimes like life will have to meet you at that level of disbelief so anyway I'm staring at this card eye to eye and the realization that I'm having around it like what it's communicating with me is like okay let's talk about the hanged man when it is just like its upright self. People talk about like oh the hanged man he's hanging from a tree by his foot and he has the wisdom to just surrender to his circumstance because no matter how hard he like struggles to get out of his situation like you know it's it's it's not a time for trying to figure out how to get down to from the tree. It's a time to just surrender to the fact that like he's tied to the tree and in that energy of surrender is there's like enlightenment to be had there. Okay I'm not arguing against that I'm not saying like bullshit that's true when we can find stillness and total presence in whatever circumstance we're in there is absolutely and always enlightenment to be found in any circumstance okay when this card was reversed what I realized basically what it was communicating to me like what people get wrong about this card is like he chose to be in that situation the hanged man is choosing to be in that situation and if he wanted to he could get down if he wanted to he could get down it's his choice okay stick with me here the hanged man trusts his surrender so much that's why he's not fighting against it. True can't confirm he said this to me. What's a misconception is how did he get up there in the first place? I don't even know if anyone's considered how he's gotten up there in the first place. But what was communicated to me it was his choice and if he wanted to get down he could get down if he didn't trust this surrender he could get down it's all his choice the message this was communicating to me was like best kept secret in the tarot because just like it's so windy because just like the hanged man can choose whether or not he wants to be in that energy of surrender we also have the same power and freedom to choose what we do or don't want to endure in our reality and what is or isn't possible about our ability to get out of that situation or to turn that situation on its head entirely hopefully I'm not losing you but if I am the whole point is like it's all possible all of it it is all possible and in order to access this unexpected magic this month I would invite you to just ask the universe to show you something like open yourself up to see something that you thought was impossible be possible. Universe I'm open to you showing me the fact that everything's possible take this thing that I thought was impossible and show me how it's actually possible okay I'm gonna leave it there yeah final prompt final messages of course um actually how this happened was like I was sitting there in awe feeling like oh okay looking at Hey Man in reverse you guys it was it was this energy of just like I don't know if you guys know those books where it's like each picture is an optical illusion but you kind of have to like adjust your eyes in a certain way to see the picture popping out at you and it's like you can be like trying to do it and then it's hard to see but then it's like once you remember like how to adjust your eyes it's like it's like you're locked in you can do it with every picture it gets really easy okay the way I was feeling with the hangman reverse when we were having this moment it was like I feel like I'm seeing into an optical illusion and I was like I don't even want to put this card down I don't even want to look away from it because I just like I was like I am so on to something right now like not just in my head but like I don't know we again we were just having this moment and I was like I don't want to look away from it because I don't want to lose it and um I just got to this Where it's like okay, but like I have to put it down and go live my life, like I can't just stay here forever, and I just have to trust that, like now that I've seen this, I have access to this information, and that in the grand scheme of things I can't unsee it, right? Um, which kind of reminds me, another message that was coming through with this card was like um, I was like, oh my god, like okay, like how do I do this? Like, tell me how I do this, whatever, whatever. And I wish I remembered the wording. This is why I think I'm just gonna plop in the raw audio. But there was something about like if you're trying to do this, you're already in the energy of like your energy is already incongruent with your ability to be able to do this, like it doesn't require trying and effort, it requires knowing that A, you can do this, because B, you've always been able to do this, and C you're already doing it, you're always already doing it, right? Like, consciously or unconsciously, you're always already doing it. Um if you feel like you're trying, you're not doing it. It's not about trying, it's about believing. Um but anyway, I was like, okay, I'm gonna put this card down now. I need to play around with this. That was the last thing I said about it. I was like, okay, I need to play around with this. Alright, final messages. What's the like what are the final messages? And I got it was the page of wands, and I was like, exactly the final messages, play around with this. And um, I pulled a clarifier, which was the um the three of pentacles, which to me they were coming together of like play around with how this is possible in your 3D reality. Like in the it specifically in the creation of your 3D reality, right? Three is the number of creativity, expansion, creation, multiplication, fertility, and with the pentacles, that has everything to do with your physical reality, the 3D world. So anyway, the message around this was like, Page of Wands, play around with it. Let this energy guide you, and in particular, let it guide you in how your like let it show you things you maybe didn't even know about how your 3D reality actually gets created in the role that you have in that. That's it. That is it, y'all. That is the message, the many, many messages for May. How long is this audio? Sheesh! Okay. Well, um, yeah, I mean, I guess I won't keep you any longer. Cool stuff here. I don't know why I'm using the word cool. It's like, why try with a bigger word when honestly there are no words? You might as well just leave it at cool. Okay. Um if you want to go deeper, you know where to find me. Part of me is like, what could be deeper? But there's gotta be something, right? So. Alright, links and bio and all that jazz, and I love you so much, and I will see you next week.